Thursday, September 5, 2013

God' work sophomore year!

I realize that I just started my sophomore year but God has done so much already! I am so extremely pumped! Where do I even start? I came in to the year really excited but honestly since I got here... It wasn't what I had expected. I love my friends so much but the guys that I have been hanging out with just are not the best influences. I was starting to become extremely frustrated because I didn't want this whole year to be like this. I knew something had to change. I love these guys! But I know that I can't be around them a lot because I get so spiritually drained that it becomes very overwhelming! So I joined choir this year (which I was not excited about) and it has been a blessing. I'm surrounded by a whole new group of people. I'm making some amazing new friends and really loving it. God knew I couldn't handle being around those same guys long and he has given me opportunities to get away from that. Although I didn't wanna join choir I don't know what I would've do e if I hadn't. I love it! He has also given me the opportunity to join breaking free! I haven't started that yet, but I am so pumped for it! This is another new group of people I am so excited to get involved with! I am so pumped about being able to make new friends and God providing these groups as kind of an escape from where I was. Those are just little blessings that have me pumped. I talked earlier about how I struggle with homosexuality. Well I decided to go to counseling this semester and I am so extremely glad I did! I had my first counseling session yesterday and loved it so much! So glad that God pushed me to do this! I was starting to really get discouraged because so many people around me are becoming okay with homosexuality and I just couldn't handle it. I was getting so down and doubting everything. I thought maybe it was okay... But no. It's not! I refuse to believe these lies that have been told to me. Yes it is a hard situation but I don't think it's okay. I think people like me just have a different role to play. My counselor pointed out Romans 12:3-6 and it talks about how as a church we are all gifted in different ways. He said you may be gifted differently than a lot of people but that doesn't mean that you are bad. Yes it's a  struggle and I am working on it but I also know I am gifted differently which is cool and I'm pumped about it. So counseling was so great! It's definitely going to be hard and a challenge but I'm up for it! Next I have always kind of wanted a mentor. So I was talking to a senior who also struggles with the same thing and he just gave me so much hope and encouragement. He is quite different and a lot of people make fun of him which makes me really mad. He is such a co person and if people took time to get to know him then they would see that. He said he would love to take me under his wing and we could meet up just to talk and stuff whenever. So another answer to my prayer! I am so excited! Seriously God is doing amazing things and I am just so excited about Him and everything! I can't wait to see what else He will do!