The Lord Speaks

I was reminded, today, of love. My friend came and told me a lot of information about her and things that she remembered that had never come up before. She is going through a lot. What did I do? Silence...I had nothing to say because I was broken. Broken by everything she was going through. I hate having nothing to say but I guess that's the best some times. I was then told that our relationship could never be the same. Obviously to some degree this hurt, but I wasn't angry. She quoted the verse 1 Corinthians 5:11 for me which says, "But now I am writing to you that you must not associate with anyone who claims to be a brother or sister^[a] but is sexually immoral or greedy, an idolater or slanderer, a drunkard or swindler. Do not even eat with such people." This is very interesting to me because yes, she considers the fact that I am gay as being a sexually immoral sin. I guess this is where we differ on what we believe in. I definitely don't see it that way, but she does. I realized something through this. I feel like it was definitely something God was telling me and it was kinda shocking to me. I never said too much after she said that. I didn't quite have words to speak. I talked to my boyfriend about all of this. I knew he would be really angry... He just wants me to be okay and everyone to be happy for me, but I know that won't happen which is fine. I guess we talked through it and it God was really telling me something through this. He said, "Cameron...you have to show the love that you want to be shown." This was crazy. He slapped me across the face. Yes, I have made this decision and no, no one agrees with it, but you know what? That's okay. I love every one of them. I have to respect where they stand and if that means they have to back off from a friendship with me...it will hurt but that's ok. I will love them. There is no reason for me to be angry here. I have to respect and love every single family and friend who disagrees. This is what God was telling me. I just think it's crazy. I guess I have been kind of selfish here because I do feel like I keep asking people to understand and just love me...when I have to do the same thing!!! I need to understand where they are coming from and love them no matter what they say  to me or do to me. I love them and will never stop loving them.