This wasn't a choice!

"This is a choice" is a phrase I hear Christians throw at the LGBT community way too much. My question is WHY THE HELL WOULD I CHOOSE THIS!?!?!  Because I really want to be part of a community that is constantly bullied and is a minority. I honestly have no clue where people get that this is a choice. It really pisses me off when I hear someone say that I chose this. Also...when did you decide to be straight? That's the real question here. If I made the choice to be gay...then you definitely made the choice to be straight. Doesn't make sense? I didn't think so either. I was reading through some different blogs today and I found one that was all about the reaction of a Christian mom to her son being gay. It almost brought tears to my eyes. She talked about how the very first thing she had to tell her son was that she loved him. She loved him and God loved him. As she went on, she talked about this being a choice. She talked with her son about it and the way he talked about she knew that it was not a choice that was made. She could see that. She went on to discuss basically what I am saying, which is why would you choose to be part of a minority that does not have rights and is constantly targeted by society. Going through this coming out process has been rough because I really am losing hope in Christians as I see how they react to this. I think they COMPLETELY go about this the wrong way. However, I see certain people who are doing right and love me despite anything. It is through these very few people that I actually do see Christ! It is through this blog that I saw Christ!! Finally some people are trying to understand. She also does state in her blog that no one can clearly understand or get what homosexuals are saying unless they deal with it! PREACH! THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I HAVE BEEN SAYING!!! Yes you can listen and understand to a certain point, but unless you go through this...you never truly understand. This was not a choice that I made. This is part me. And another thing. Do not compare this to being an alcoholic or drug user. I have heard these things which piss me off. That apparently they think that's just part of them. I really think that's something entirely different. I really am trying to show God's love but it is so hard when I live around people who are not doing the same.